Regarding the Soul
Regarding the Soul, and what may have happened to mine…
(Partially in response to a comment from the last entry.)
Personally, I believe that the soul has a broader existence that our conscious mind is aware of. I feel that is had knowledge of the nature of reality that we do not know on an active level. Because of this, it would not surprise me if within my soul, the answer to my problem is known.
I like the idea proposed in the comments from the last entry that it is my soul that jumped back. When I think about it, that makes sense. If the soul lives in a broader world, why should that world be limited by time? Why couldn’t the soul choose to communicate with my mortal self in a way that lets me experience my memories and feelings from a wider portion of my existence?
If this is truly the case – that I didn’t jump back in time so much as open a window to allow myself to experience my future life, it opens up new lines of questioning. Is the life that I ‘remember’ true? Or is it just a vision of one potential path?
If it is just potential… how should I respond to my emotions of loss for my wife and family? Not to mention my home, my friends, my work. Did I truly lose them? Or is this vision just a learning experience to help me make better choices in my future?
I’m not very comfortable with this line of questioning, to be honest. I feel like I have truly lived that life. My memories of 2005 are often fuzzy, while my memories of the future are very clear. And I don’t want to conclude that my future life was nothing but a potential path. I am quite attached to that life, even if the Buddhists out there would disapprove of that emotion.
Apparently, I have more questions than answers today.